sweet torture

like christmas, today is one of those i wanted to pass by without even noticing it. okay, not to be construed as someone “kill-joy”, i never wanted any holiday that was there too much commercialized that adds up to the pressure around to celebrate even when you don’t feel like doing it for obvious reasons.

while i try to go with the flow, i no longer no any significants of these things since the feeling or thought of it is already clouded with something to do with money.

how i wish i could celebrate it without any pressure. soon.